不禁在想，要是真的世界末日怎辦。好像真的有很多事情還沒有做。戀愛沒有談完。孩子還沒有生。沒有好好享受日子。我不害怕，但不捨得。

愛和被愛的感覺很好
世界末日之前，我明白了，我被很多人愛著，也包括了他。
謝謝大家。

Karma.

"Maybe Karma is doing her dirty work"
"You call it dirty!"

"I mean it, 'coz I saw that on you"

".."

"Maybe this is my turn."

..

Yes, I almost forget everything happens for a reason.
God is going to give me a big lesson.

"Why it is so hard?"

"Why do you expect it to be easy?"

..

不要著燈

當我為了別人的曾經感驚訝、錯愕。回想自己的曾經，或者我不過是五十步笑百步。 這些事情，原來我真的好想一一告訴你... 葉先生，我是否認該當你死了一樣悼念你，而不是掛念你。

上星期臨睡前看Concert YY DVD
她令我哭了

送給你們

讓那　恐龍成群行過枱面
衣櫃入面藏著花園
心儀男孩長駐於身邊
夢要變真也沒那樣遠
生命從未如樂園
也可靠我創造浮現

讓那　彩虹長橋無限伸展
飛象日日雲上表演
魔幻現實尋到相交點
在我心房的　黃色　門裡
保存著　未坐那火箭

意志消沉時，修甲和收拾房子都是絕佳的抖擻精神的方法。
好好打理身體髮膚和生活，也就等於疼惜自己。

my friends, you are not alone

希望心裡的平安、長久的幸福都離我們不很遠。

"沒人能一手把你拽到天堂，也沒人能一腳把你踩到地獄，命運中所謂痛苦與快樂，只是內心感受，當你超越自己的狹隘和自私時，你會感到處處是天堂；當你被煩惱糾纏不清時，哪裡都是地獄。所以說，萬法唯心，命自我造。命運如何，就看你怎麼去努力，怎麼去看待。命運就在你的手裡，也在你的心裡。"

原來要溫柔到自己覺得嘔心的程度才足夠

也許雙子座的他真的可以教懂我一切

life truly is a bitch

少女時代渴望快點變成女人, 到真的成熟了, 卻發現煩惱只有更多....

怎樣也好, right at this moment, 我知, 你最愛的是我。縱使最愛只是如此....不知道你是否The One, 也不知道The One其實到底是否真的等得到.....Take it or leave it, 我是真的知道。從頭到尾, 走到這裡, 只是不想當一個欺騙自己的人, 我不要假裝幸福。

接下來, 就看看我有多愛你....




巨蟹座是真的好客易情緒低落, 可是rebounce也不是說笑的！
心癢癢的想要再打掃、想要揮霍、想要改變、想要好好愛自己....









(彷彿又充滿力量了，為什麼妳這樣奇怪＋可怕........)

是夜真的有點茅塞頓開的感覺。很想說聲謝謝 ! ! :)

http://blog.yahoo.com/tvbQQ/articles/784877/index


愛得太容易，分得太脆弱。

愛得太理智，冷得太輕易。

愛得太小心，傷得更徹底。

愛得太浪漫，醒來必失意。

愛得太不安，彼此都窒息。

愛得太掏心，最後成遺憾。

愛得太算計，互鬥又何必？

愛得太老實，雙方無樂趣。

愛得太衝動，摔得太糊塗。


求愛難，相愛也難，留愛更難。

但是，一旦棄愛，我們連開始都沒有。

離得開了你 令我堅強

收. 拾.

太多身外物。一天晚上，把東西一件一件地丟棄，心裡痛、也痛快。

革命尚未成功，小女子仍需繼續努力。

detox.

3個月多一點，正是檢討時。
情緒忽高忽低，納悶；總結是：我不夠好、不好愛。
沒有踩低自己的意圖，因為我清楚知道，你愛我的話，無論我多麼不完美，你同樣愛我；不愛我，我就連站著呼吸也是錯。

只是，我希望自己我可以更勇敢、更自信、活得更努力一點、輕省一點;更加堅強、同時更加溫柔－－無論我身邊有沒有你、是不是你。　

Career?

Feeling a bit stressed, worried, weary...about my work.
Time to take it seriously ..

3 months.

Had a great weekend with D. Laid back & loving.
Tried to express myself, the full version. What I like & dislike about him, his habits...and it feels damn great!!!
If we love each other, there should be nothing to hide...
So it seems I have found the balance.... 

Open Relationship

一個很精彩的製作，無論演員表現、舞台設計、音樂、故事的陳述方法都屬於水準以上。

***

「我請在場各人見證，我xxx願以你yyy為我合法丈夫 / 妻子，許諾從今以後，無論環境順逆，富貴貧窮，疾病健康，我將永遠愛慕尊重你，終身不渝。」

對的，想清楚，結婚的誓詞真的很harsh。

***

"計算的愛情才可長久 不安的關係才想去愛"....... Are you sure?

雜

有時候覺得自己像一隻受驚的小白兔，想亂跑，想躲起來。 朋友跟我說，遇上生命中的那個人的時候，心底裡就有把聲音告訴你：是他了。 And that feeling would be very intense. 靜待那個人、那種感覺。

爸爸的status

"堅強地走自己的路"

童話

原來漸漸會學懂所有事情。

how.to.reclaim.innocence.

到了今天才驚覺， 我是如何一點一滳失去信任別人的能力。沒有怪責誰的意思，只是感到，原來某一種不安全感早已in my system。信任別人，還有自己，亦是需要做的功課。

Nice treat

Yoga+ iced latte+get off work early

best way to kill depression :)

oh, and well taken care by people.

My day started with a weird dream..

To dream that you are wounded signifies grief, anger, or distress. You need to slow down and take time to heal. Consider the location, size and type of wound. Alternatively, the dream may be metaphor that you are all "wound up" or tense about some situation.

To dream that your arm has been injured signifies your inability to care for yourself or your helplessness in reaching out to others. You may have been feeling limited and restricted in terms of your freedom or activities.The right arm signifies your outgoing nature and is associated with masculine energy, while your left arm signifies your supportive or nurturing nature and is associated with feminine qualities. Losing either arm may suggest that you are failing to recognize its respective characteristics.

To dream that someone else is pregnant indicates that you are experiencing a closer connection to this person.

To see or attend a wedding in your dream symbolizes a new beginning or transition in your current life. A wedding reflects your issues about commitment and independence.�Alternatively, your wedding dream refers to feelings of bitterness, sorrow, or death. Such dreams are often negative and highlight some anxiety or fear. If you dream that the wedding goes wrong or ends in disaster, then it suggests that you need to address some negativity immediately. If you are getting married and have dreams of your pending wedding, then it highlights the stress of organizing a wedding. Conflicts over wedding details, tension with family and in-laws, fear of commitment, and loss of independence may all cause wedding anxiety dreams. Research has shown that up to 40% of brides and grooms have dreams about their ceremony and things going perfectly.

If you dream that you are attending a wedding, consider how you feel at the wedding. If you are upset or sad, then it means that you are unhappy about the current status of your life. If you are happy, then you are embracing a new change in your life.

Positive..positive..positive..

"No men is an island" - TRUE

"Hell is the other" - VERY TRUE

 So, now I'm in hell. A heavenly hell....


I thought I was a sustainable island, and ready to connect....does that still apply? I doubted. I feel something is cracking my system....

Maybe I'm just too tired, or I should just blame the hormones...

好事情

一周回顧:

• 休假兩天, 稍微休息一下
• 第一次為他下煮 *獲得5粒星星 :)
• 收到他送的第一份"情侶"禮物
• 獨個兒在旺角閒逛 *一周二回
• Dog walk miumiu *一小時
• 3天完成5天工作 *累
• 姊妹們的聚會
• 第一次與他逛Toy R us

sorry , 無大事可記...其實值得感恩

下周需要繼續努力工作! 瑜珈! 放狗! 睇書! 執屋!!!

跟他一起很快樂。我已經明白世上幾乎沒有永恆的事情，更不敢像從前輕言一輩子。 可是，真的很想再說一遍：

跟 他 一 起 真 的 很 快 樂

"我們從來都未曾愛上一個完整的坦白的人，我們愛上的對象，總有這樣那樣的深藏部分你永遠無法擁有。"

"如果我明白黑暗，我就明白光；練習不愛，就知道愛的可能"

I love you, I really do.

But it's time to back to yoga mat :)

良夜美景沒原因出了軌　
來讓我知一切皆可放低
還是百載未逢的美麗　
得到過又猝逝　
也有一種智慧


我從來沒有忘記

We talked about "us" last night. It's so good that we talk like adults (hell yeah...we are ones). And then I realized how easy we could fall apart. And how easy I could get hurt. And here comes a question : is it worth to take the risk? If we didn't start, we could be friends forever. We are still very happy and sweet. Yet how long it will last?

Slowly I figured out what I have done (or not done) to drive my love away....but hey, this is just me...

想不想
能不能
可以不可以

絕對是3件事來的

練習

好想煮給你吃, 又由於太久沒下廚, 竟然先練習一次。我想這是愛吧。

又或者, 我是在摸索如何愛一個人; 一段關係當然雙方都有責任, 但是, 回看從前自己與他們如何相處, 我好像都錯過了好好愛他們的時機。

是的,我不想再錯過了。

20120724

20120724 GOD BLESS AMERICA

...got nothing to say. Recommended.

GOD BLESS CHINA.

*Our first T8/T9/T10.... 

20120721

20120721
Laughing Gor之潛罪犯
....


我話吳鎮宇好有型, 佢就俾呢套我睇..
咩料呀? :)


"犯法和犯罪是兩種事和概念，人要犯法是因為在合法途徑得不到世界的公平對待"

well, in sense it's true...

勇氣

我在思考　
安全感　是怎麼一回事
信任　　又是怎麼一回事

跟之前的多麼不一樣
那麼我希望我們的結果也會不一樣

此時此刻可以肯定的是
讓我掛念的男人只有一個
或者這才是最重要的，對嗎?

20120718

20120718
Perfect Sense

Overwhelmed with grief, people are hit with all that they've lost.
Lovers they never had, all the departed friends..
they've think about the people they've hurt.

First, overwhelmed with grief.. and then no sense of smell.. that's the disease.
They call it severe old factory syndrome.. S O S. They say it wasn't contagious, but they do believed that.

***

Life goes on.. the food become spicier, saltier, more sweet, more sour, you get used to it.
The greater loss or all the memories that'll no longer triggered.
Smell and memory were connected in the brain.
Cinnamon might've name that two of your grandmother's apron.
The scent of cuddlin' could evoke a child with fear of calves.
These are always might back your memories of your first ferry crossing, without smell, an ocean of passed images disappears.



(Okay, now I'm impressed by your taste for movie)

20120716

20120716
The Best Exotic Marigold Hotel

Evelyn: Nothing here has worked out quite as I expected.
Muriel: Most things don't. But sometimes what happens instead is the good stuff.

***

Sonny: Everything will be all right in the end. So if it is not all right, then it is not yet the end.

***

Sonny: It is because I love her that I must not tell her

...............And this is when you whispered in my ears. I am trying to remember all the little, tender moments. Maybe I'll show you this blog somedays...maybe not.... :)

"至少我沒有欺騙自己"

雖然，當她真人現身之後，我強烈地感覺到她是屬於典型"高質"港女的那種bitch，

還是對她這個talk show有點期待。

要感謝友人幫忙訂票!!

不要讓我失望啊Daisy!

20120706

20120706

"晚秋"之後，很喜歡湯唯。
淡淡的美。

曾經攀上的天梯　曾經擁抱的身體 曾經在乎一切　被突然摧毀　霎那比沙更細 良夜美景沒原因出了軌　來讓我知一切皆可放低 還是百載未逢的美麗　得到過又猝逝　也有一種智慧

全年度有幾多首歌　給天天的播　給你最愉快的消磨 流行是一首窩心的歌　突然間說過就過 誰曾是你這一首歌　你記不清楚　我看著你離座 真高興給你愛護過　根本你不欠我甚麽

曾經擁有的春季　曾經走過的谷底 人生是場興替　忽高也忽低　不輸氣勢

誰曾是你這一首歌　你記不清楚　我看著你離座 很高興因你燦爛過　高峰過總會有下坡 回憶裝滿的抽屜　時光機裡的光輝 人生豔如花卉　但限時美麗　一覽始終無遺

回望昨天劇場深不見底　還是有幾幕曾好好發揮 還願我懂下台的美麗　鞠躬了就退位　起碼得到敬禮 誰又妄想一曲一世　讓人忠心到底

誰 可 以 － － －

新裙子。笑。高跟鞋。溫馨晚餐。甜點。漫步。無聊。笑。

愛固然是談不上。
但－－喜歡嗎？我不知道。





時常想起最近讀到一首詩....

人　生　若　只　如　初　見


只需短短的七個字，餘下的千言萬語，都不必再說。

2 9

！




寫了好長的一篇，錯手delete

這　就　是　人　生 　嗎？　哈哈！




624：
生日快樂，即使你不再跟我說話，我還是會掛念你。
我過的很好。別擔心。 :)

I'm striked. I'm fascinated.

我問佛：世間爲何有那麼多遺憾？

佛曰：這是一個婆娑世界，婆娑即遺憾

沒有遺憾，給你再多幸福也不會體會快樂

我問佛：如何讓人們的心不再感到孤單？

佛曰：每一顆心生來就是孤單而殘缺的

多數帶着這種殘缺度過一生

隻因與能使它圓滿的另一半相遇時

不是疏忽錯過，就是已失去了擁有它的資格

我問佛：如果遇到了可以愛的人，卻又怕不能把握該怎麼辦？

佛曰：留人間多少愛，迎浮世千重變

和有情人，做快樂事

别問是劫是緣

十誡詩

第一最好不相見，如此便可不相戀。

第二最好不相知，如此便可不相思。

但曾相見便相知，相見何如不見時。

安得與君相訣絕，免教生死作相思。

K

K:
我有聽你的話
我祈禱
向你相信的神祈禱
但我祈求的是
衪把健康的身體賜給你
讓你可以做自己喜歡的事

謝謝你愛我
我的朋友

Gloomy Monday. I hate Monday.

Feeling low, low, low.... today. Yet I have to acknowledge that this is not the lowest point of my life, I mean, definitely NOT the lowest in compared to the even lower points in the past years...

Life could get really frustrating sometime, the negative emotions just jump in, out of nowhere, attacking my World once has reached its optimal balanced state. Oh dear, you have no idea how hard it is for me to going uphill bit by bit...

Now I am going all the way down....
But I got to say....I truly believe everything happens for a reason....

***

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My love, the world is SO big, go explore it.

是時候（再一次）RESET

昨晚女友們跟我提早慶祝生日，只喝了一杯，突然就醉了。近日諸事不順，是不開心吧，不開心的時候什麼也不能喝，是天條。在忙碌的日子裡，2012就這樣過了一半。多不願意也好，生活的一部分給惱人的工作佔據著，相士先生曾說過，我無論做什麼工作也會覺得辛苦，是命，但我倒也希望他預測的沒有錯，因為他說我只需要工作到40歲(!)

Have faith. 對未來有盼望是對的。

很喜歡eason最新歌：重口味，真的是很重口味的80年代電子，俾個LIKE佢。而歌詞是這樣的：

每次殺不死你　殺不死你　也醫好你 / 切記要爭口氣　要爭口氣　你不要死 / 眼淚裡含有止痛藥 / 誰亦靠啜泣啜泣啜泣去通眼耳口鼻

對啊Wyman！


下半年請相信自己，繼續努力。

寂寞

很少寫字，最近更少靜下來與自己溝通。倒是有天無聊，把去年十月之後與我遇到的男孩、或男人一一羅列出來。喜歡我的、扮喜歡我的、我以為自己喜歡的......數字有點驚人，而我現在仍然單身。

然後覺得，這城市裡的人其實很寂寞。

畢竟所有的小孩出門後都還是會回到照顧他的人身邊去的!

Oh really.

In gentle May, romance will be written all over your chart, so take time away from mundane matters to enjoy your partner, with walks under the stars, private candlelit dinners, and time to share dreams. If you are single, May will be your brightest month to meet someone new or to celebrate love you share with a person dearly important to you.
The full moon over the weekend date night of May 5 should set the scene for one of the most enchanting evenings of the year, perfect for spinning a memory for the two of you. Neptune will drop his veil of beauty over reality and transport you to a heavenly a place where wristwatches don't work and cell phones can't reach you. It matters not if you are attached or single, this weekend is made for love. If you are single, leave your doubts by the door as you step into the world to find out all it has to offer you. This full moon has the power to change lives and get your heart beating double time. Mars will make a short trip possible if you like, and Pluto will bring closeness with your partner.
Soon you'll see that things were only getting started over that full moon. Over the weekend of May 12-13, Jupiter will meet with the Sun, and you are due for still another banner romantic night to remember. At this time you will see the power of love and friendship to move mountains, and you will suddenly know how dearly others care about you and adore your heart. This most fortunate weekend of the year would be an ideal time to give a party, or go to one. The music, the food and flowers, the beautiful people, all will come together to form a rare night that can only be described as platinum gold.
Also, at the same time, May 10-13, you are very likely to get welcome news about your finances. Clearly, your "stock" will be rising in the marketplace, dear Cancer, so it's an ideal time to schedule an interview, make a presentation, or craft a deal. When you're hot, you're hot! At mid-month, you can do no wrong.
Later, near May 25-28, when Uranus and the Sun combine energies, your career will hit new high notes. This is remarkable, since in the US, that time is Memorial Day, a big holiday that one would not associate with sudden career opportunity. The universe doesn't know about our calendar and delivers goodies when it likes to do so, so be ready to answer your phone, dear Cancer. You may want to call forward all your calls to your cell phone (ha, ha - like I do).
The solar eclipse in Gemini, May 20, will bring golden light to the wellness area of your chart, bringing you opportunity to rid yourself of a habit that may be self-destructive or of a health condition that has been troubling to you. The best part about life is that you can always start fresh. Get help if necessary - there is no need to sit and suffer. With just a bit of effort from you, Jupiter will see to it that you move in precisely the right direction. This same eclipse will make you a wizard of productivity behind closed doors, so if you have a project that needs concentration and focus, this eclipse will be your best friend.

---

Dates to Note for Cancer:

Your most romantic dates: May 1-2, 4-6, 9, 10-13, 18, 19, 24, and 25-28.

Romance reaches a high point over the full moon May 5, plus or minus four days.
Something comes to closure.

Travel with your spouse or partner: May 1

One of your most brilliant, lucky days of the year: May 12-13 (or earlier, over May 10-11), expect a social event that will be quite extraordinary for you - fun, luxurious, with new friendship possible.

Venus will retrograde May 15 to June 27, and this may cause delays or setbacks in regard to your home situation.

The solar eclipse of May 20 will boost your intuition to work on very high levels.
If you travel over May 19, you'll love the results!

Expect sudden good news for your career over May 26-28.

煎 熬

我需要改掉的, 還有 all-or-nothing的mentality.................

功課

這陣子漸漸發現自己話太多了，對所有人都是。我從來以為自己的是一個很好的聆聽者，原來不。沒有人在投訴（可能在心裡面有吧小姐），有人甚至說，故事的內容都很沉悶的，妳說起來就好有趣了。有人不介意、甚至喜歡聽自己說話，其實是開心的，但.....

反正就是覺得自己話太多...



男人喜歡一個女人說話會變多

女人喜歡一個男人就學習聆聽吧

Life is a box of chocolates..

不經不覺已經過了半年。終於明白，並接受，上一段感情屬於內傷， 久不久原來還是會痛，但重要的是：死不了人。

這半年裡遇上不同的人和事情，是我之前沒法想像的。可能這就是人生好玩的地方。於我最大的改變是，寂寞減少了很多很多，而當感到寂寞的時候，我也不再害怕，那個懂得好好獨處的我回來了。

也開始厭倦男女之間那種心理戰。對著男人，還是做回自己比較好。不高興就拉倒。

如果你問我現在是否快樂，我會告訴你I'm a happy girl。我看見很多人每天在欺騙自己，選擇不去看清楚身邊的人或者身處的狀況。可是我沒有－－這是我最驕傲的地方。我可以欺騙所有人，但一定不會欺騙自己。


親愛的，你好好聽著：無論如何，我永遠愛你。

「...我們這樣交集過
    怎可能是兩條平行線..」

這個星期瘋狂地追看<<敗犬女王>>
(小姐你真係好OUT)
請問哪兒去找像LUCAS、像宋允浩般完美的男人?

OBSESSIONS

The 6th month.
I feel I am doing even worse..

1) I need accompany
2) I want that to be you

but even if you were here, all my problems solved?

NO. it wont.


I know that I have to deal with my own problems before I can love you -- or anybody else.

So all I have to do is......have faith, stay strong --- take a deep breath and move forward.

Let's just live with the flow

以前的我害怕失敗，害怕失去，所以拼了命去得到，拼了命去努力，拼了命的去保留我所擁有的一切，我一直以為我很富足。直到有一天我以為我所擁有的東西全部都毀滅，就像炸彈爆炸一下化成了灰燼，我才發現，一切的努力不過就是一場空。而且，沒有人會為你曾努力過的感謝你。我才頓時覺悟，很多事情是再怎麼努力也沒有用。就像「那些年，我們一起追的女孩」中女主角說的：「人生很多事情本來就是徒勞無功的」

http://www.wretch.cc/blog/illyqueen/13314125

今晚, 明白了一些些事情。沿途風景也實在好看 --- 況且有童話一樣的開端, 也不一定有童話般的結局 --- 那又何必急於要翻到最終章呢。親愛的, 別怕, 我都還是站在這裡。

Let's just live with the flow.

2012. 2012?

You are my sunshine
My only sunshine
一喊　一笑　光陰似水
踏入奇妙之旅　抱你然後安睡

祈求讓你了解　動盪年代有太多怪事情
凡人為每日艱苦生活拼　而你是吃苦的幹勁
明日是好動　還是好靜　讓我緊張你無止境
有日　隨年成熟了你方向未明
誰真心講個故仔你傾聽　誰跟你幸福觀天看星
無論是太平　還是革命　仍樂於新一天馳騁　看新的風景

You are my sunshine
My only sunshine
一歲　一歲　攀山涉水
玩具埋在心裡　你記得別恐懼

祈求讓你了解 　自問成就我也不過是零
能維護你樂觀心境任性　談一次夢想追一次星
年月是冷酷　還是有情　仍樂於新一天馳騁

祈求讓你了解　日後如若我也心跳漸停
祈求在某地祝禱保護你　留給你是一彎的背影
熔岩撞廢城　還是放晴　讓我緊張你無止境

有日　隨年成熟了你方向未明
誰真心講個故仔你傾聽　誰跟你幸福觀天看星
明日是太平　還是革命　仍樂於新一天馳騁　

You are my sunshine
My only sunshine
Forever sunshine, sunshine

搖籃曲於天空馳騁




這三個月發生了很多事情. 每天每天都在努力地平衡著自己的世界.
今晚聽到這首歌...it reminds me again there is always a guy, or a bunch of people, out there backing you up. They love you, care about you and cherish you for whatever happens.

一直說的 LIVE WITH THE FLOW...希望我在2012年能夠真正的做到.
新年快樂.