The essence of kindness :)

Sometimes we feel empty; we feel a vacuum, a great lack of something. We don’t know the cause; it’s very vague, but that feeling of being empty inside is very strong. We expect and hope for something much better so we’ll feel less alone, less empty. The desire to understand ourselves and to understand life is a deep thirst. There’s also the deep thirst to be loved and to love. We are ready to love and be loved. It’s very natural. But because we feel empty, we try to find an object of our love. Sometimes we haven’t had the time to understand ourselves, yet we’ve already found the object of our love. When we realize that all our hopes and expectations of course can’t be fulfilled by that person, we continue to feel empty. You want to find something, but you don’t know what to search for. In everyone there’s a continuous desire and expectation; deep inside, you still expect something better to happen. That is why you check your email many times a day!

The essence of loving kindness is being able to offer happiness. You can be the sunshine for another person. You can’t offer happiness until you have it for yourself. So build a home inside by accepting yourself and learning to love and heal yourself. Learn how to practice mindfulness in such a way that you can create moments of happiness and joy for your own nourishment. Then you have something to offer the other person.
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If you have enough understanding and love, then every moment — whether it’s spent making breakfast, driving the car, watering the garden, or doing anything else in your day — can be a moment of joy.

http://www.brainpickings.org/2015/03/31/how-to-love-thich-nhat-hanh/?mc_cid=310b10396d&mc_eid=f8e68a2b7d

Emptiness...I know so well what it is. I always cried in the dark. It ate me. It was very horrifying. But now I realize I seldom feel empty. I enjoy being alone. I try to stay strong; I try to love and be loved; I try to concentrate on daily little things that make me happy , or calm me; Still easily getting attached to stuffs (yesm STUFF, not people, I've lost faith lost faith in most human already) but I try looking inside for a moment of silence and peace ---

Cannot express how grateful I am for the people who treasure me, and for the people and things I treasure. 

Love xoxoxo

[why being so positive on a Monday morning ? ha!]